Perforce is: always compulsive
I don't like to be forced.
If something becomes a must for me, my skin starts to crawl.
How can it be?
Knowing this, I still let it happen.
Why is it?
Don't I look inside myself enough ?
Where is the courage, to learn.
To learn what I still can't do.
By constantly postponing,
or pushing it ahead of me.
It becomes heavier,
inflicts me with more pain or burden.
Till I am forced
to take action.
It becomes peaceful.
I feel released again.
Like I am getting time off,
I suddenly have room to move again.