Perforce is: always compulsive

I don't like to be forced.
If something becomes a must for me, my skin starts to crawl.

How can it be?
Knowing this, I still let it happen.

Why is it?
Don't I look inside myself enough ?

Where is the courage, to learn.
To learn what I still can't do.

By constantly postponing,
or pushing it ahead of me.

It becomes heavier,
inflicts me with more pain or burden.

Till I am forced
to take action.

It becomes peaceful.
I feel released again.

Like I am getting time off,
I suddenly have room to move again.